Listening to Something Borrowed on Audio CD, I cried just a little bit. A few tears later, I felt stupid and not very safe, since crying can blur your vision and I don't want that while driving. Finally I told myself to get a grip. After all, I won't be 30 until next year!
I think what surfaced those emotions has nothing to do with how I feel about age. It's more about the things I thought I'd have accomplished by now. Well, I can't say most of my goals haven't been reached, but in the love department things haven't been great. I don't know what it is, I don't know who to blame...or should I blame anyone. The truth is...
I'm content with what I've accomplished, but I wish I had someone to share and enjoy all the things I go through in order to get there. At the same time, I'm okay not having anyone in my life right now. After last year, it's actually a relief not having anybody around who I have to go after to get attention. I'd rather be on my own than be with a person who isn't "all there" for me. So, that's the past. I won't let it happen to me. I won't let another guy waste my time.
This post, rather, this blog isn't about my love life. There won't be any more mention of it...or lack thereof. Maybe part of me is still angry. Not at him, at myself for letting that "relationship" go on so "one-sided" for as long as it did. Lesson learned! And you know what, I'm better for it. I'll be 29 and wiser this year. Ponto pra mim!
